so I kind of had the urge to start blogging again, but keep my fiction apart from it. So yes, big time changes. I feel kind of getting in touch with my inner child again and started watching loads of cartoons and well you might think Haha from skipping work, canceling appointments because you are to fucked up to watching cartoons all day great leap kyriako. Congratulations, but well it is indeed kind of research since yes its true Iam writing on a fantasy story and well to fullfill some cliches the time from age 1-8 were my happiest and well I kind of do not see myself as Peter Pan, do not worry there, but I do wanna sort of combine Kyriako the happy child, try to laeave out the always in trouble-getting expelled from high school-changing high school 8 times, abusing substances, leaving home with 17 for the big city with great expectations but ending up again in nothing but trouble and debt Kyria from age 12-to lets say 22 ( yep I know the average puberty is until somewhat until age 18 but well you know I admit to be retarded in so many ways) And whatever Iam in best company anyway just think about Larry Clark, Michael Jackson, who couldn´t get over there childhood/teenagehood. So anyway Iam trying to find a healthy way here. Anyway my favourite so far is Watership down. I just love how it deals with death since the death of very close friends has been such a subject in the past five years. So well I never had a big relationship with my grandma in Portugal so Iam only confronted with the death of young people whcih is even sadder, but anyway as cheesy as it sounds: Watership down, the brother lionheart all that stories have an amazing way of dealing with death by incorporating fantasy and well I kind of miss that thing that you can just make up new realms and stuffs when you need it or do not really have explanations or can not really except the given explanations. And this sounds so negative, but when you think about it everybody makes up his own realm, let it be something like going to the office every day to sit oon front of a computer - has soooo nothing to do with reality, so why not actually come up with something more beautiful?
anyway, there you go getting a glimpse of where I am right now, enjoy Simon and Garfunkel plus the inner child with its own way of dealing.: